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Set In

In bed, I stayed all day
Depression kept me there
A dubious mind ran away
Depression told it to
Crying all day with all reason
Depression made it happen
It’s, not a phase anymore
Depression finally set in.

~Cass

I’m not sure whether I’ve been happy. After my last book tour, I sat on my balcony with a cup of tea. I thought: ‘You can’t rewind the movie. I’ve spent more than half my life in the Middle East. There have been great moments of horror and depression and loneliness.’

~Robert Fisk

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Lacerate

The incision I make small to suffice
The pain I take in is no real surprise
The tears that fall have already been expected
The rain in my soul keeps falling no exception
I bear my sins to try to keep on working
I falter here and there to show I make mistakes
I love too hard so that everyone else can smile
I try to hard to keep that smile on your face
My days are short but I am not truly happy
My love is more I have only given a piece
My poems are written to show the real me
My life will keep living so long as I’m on my feet.

~Cass

I  Love Ericka for really helping me find myself through this. These are my thoughts. Thanks for reading!

“Other times, I look at my scars and see something else: a girl who was trying to cope with something horrible that she should never have had to live through at all. My scars show pain and suffering, but they also show my will to survive. They’re part of my history that’ll always be there.”

~ Cheryl Rainfield, Scars

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Double Meaning

She lived at bay for years at end

No one to hold no friend of men

All around just a swift breeze

How sad it is for her to be at ease

Oh no one knows her sorrows

A ship in harbor wallows

A bitter fear that follows

Oh why oh why is she hollow

No one can see her they don’t trust her

They say she’s unsafe but haven’t sailed her

Why can’t we all just stop and be polite

Holding on to the past is all she has

No one to pick her up

Everyone has torn her down

Old and battered never went to sea

Checking out time is up

Her sail has lowered only now to be lifted up

He just walked past and climbed on

Never had a friend and now she sees

Not all are bad but, good is rare as can be

She’s finally being used for what she was made for

No more flaws she sees a new ship in the mirror

A new woman is what she is

A new friend is what she has

A new meaning to life her dream

 

To a port, she parked on for years

She isn’t taken for granted

She isn’t being abused

Now they see her but before not being used

Being used for her purpose now they see the good in her

A ship at harbor was not her purpose nor her full potential

Being at sea was her new home

Soon she would be beautiful again

No, not again that ruined her the first time

She wants to stay in the city that’s her home

Unknown seas she sails through

No friend of man was how she went through

How sad is that till he came by

She was ready to give up and say goodbye

Not her true meaning but what they made her

How she came about and overcame failure

Now as they say a ship in harbor may be safe

Not the true meaning nor what it’s built for

But how she sees herself now is more.

~Cass

Hey, guys, hopefully, everyone has been doing well. Again thank you, Ericka, for your amazing pictures. Also, thanks, to all of the amazing people that find time to read my blog.

“A ship in harbor is safe — but that is not what ships are built for.” — John A. Shedd.

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Vacuity

You can make me feel terrible
But I can’t make you feel it
You can talk shit about me
But I can’t speak about you

You can keep me in the dark
But I can’t leave you alone
You can take away my heart
But I can’t even get to yours

You can break me the most
But I can’t crack you open
How come you mess with me
You can’t wait till I’m done

Life isn’t the least bit over
Come, run, until you can’t
Sadly I am stuck no way out
Why is this poet crying

Not because she is dying
I wonder who she speaks of
A lowly conscious that is flying.

~Cass

 

Hey guys,

I’m back it’s summer now and I am forcing myself to write mainly because I’ve been slacking and now I’m ready to post every week and I want to thank my photographer for all of these amazing pictures. Enjoy your life guys because sometimes it can take over and living starts to feel like a burden.

Once I knew only darkness and stillness… my life was without past or future… but a little word from the fingers of another fell into my hand that clutched at emptiness, and my heart leaped to the rapture of living.

~Helen Keller

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Ethical

I’ve been here for while not once did I mention what I look like

I still won’t tell you but here’s a hint, discrimination is real

No matter what you are or the color of your skin

People love the act of judging even if they say they don’t

I’m a person as are you; my life isn’t easy no ones is

We all fight for what we want to get bigger in life

The more you fight the greater you become

Your importance is not valued by such things of pettiness

Take all that you’ve made throw them at the world

Throw them so gracefully they can’t question the hurl.

~Cass

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Gone

Once again I can’t wait to leave

No PTSD but depression still present

No remorse but flowers still grow in my name

The world continues to spin with no ceasing

But the broad prospect is still on you

“Stay for me”, they say but who cares

No more sadness in your life, leave them behind.

 

Just live guys and live for as long as you can, live so no one can intrude, live free and go forward.

~Cass

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