It comes up behind and it takes you by surprise
The happiness you feel now hides
Don’t scream and don’t lie
Just walk down the road in disguise
“Forget, but live in the past”
Is the only thought that passes by
Not truly living is what you fear
What you don’t know is not scary
The unknown thing creeping is only daring
Just be you and don’t steer away
It only wants to consume the horrors you cave
You can make me feel terrible
But I can’t make you feel it
You can talk shit about me
But I can’t speak about you
You can keep me in the dark
But I can’t leave you alone
You can take away my heart
But I can’t even get to yours
You can break me the most
But I can’t crack you open
How come you mess with me
You can’t wait till I’m done
Life isn’t the least bit over
Come, run, until you can’t
Sadly I am stuck no way out
Why is this poet crying
Not because she is dying
I wonder who she speaks of
A lowly conscious that is flying.
I’m back it’s summer now and I am forcing myself to write mainly because I’ve been slacking and now I’m ready to post every week and I want to thank my photographer for all of these amazing pictures. Enjoy your life guys because sometimes it can take over and living starts to feel like a burden.
Once I knew only darkness and stillness… my life was without past or future… but a little word from the fingers of another fell into my hand that clutched at emptiness, and my heart leaped to the rapture of living.
I’ve been here for while not once did I mention what I look like
I still won’t tell you but here’s a hint, discrimination is real
No matter what you are or the color of your skin
People love the act of judging even if they say they don’t
I’m a person as are you; my life isn’t easy no ones is
We all fight for what we want to get bigger in life
The more you fight the greater you become
Your importance is not valued by such things of pettiness
Take all that you’ve made throw them at the world
Throw them so gracefully they can’t question the hurl.
Once again I can’t wait to leave
No PTSD but depression still present
No remorse but flowers still grow in my name
The world continues to spin with no ceasing
But the broad prospect is still on you
“Stay for me”, they say but who cares
No more sadness in your life, leave them behind.
Just live guys and live for as long as you can, live so no one can intrude, live free and go forward.
I wish I could write like him
Make people see what’s really on my mind
I wish I could be the person you see
Think twice, look back, I’m dead inside
I wish my heart was as good as gold
No dreams are left in my sad, dull mind
I wish I didn’t cry at all
Sadly, there are feelings still left behind.
Heavy hearts, like heavy clouds in the sky, are best relieved by the letting of a little water.
What would I be if I lived in an unholy place?
Expectations I have due today, my life on hold in this day?
How long has it been since I’ve been through today,
Being told lies in this sadistic way?
What would be made known of me if I lied in a crazy way?
Problems, that’s what people had yesterday.
Why need cry about it today?
Live only in the time you have not in some odd way.
This is when problems arise just continue on your way.
Photo: Ericka Garcia
I feel like I am in a new place with my fears
Lifting my feet for them to be slammed down
Breaking high walls to meet standards
Not loving myself enough to reach higher ground
It’s hard to get out I’m stuck in a maze
Help me reach the end I don’t want to be caged
They’re coming to get me those awful things
Come catch me from the things I don’t want to see
Grab my body shake me till it’s gone
The memories are catching me headlights are on
I’m being taken where’d you go
I’m all alone deranged unsteady dark and far from home
A lost cause that’s how it seems
A renegade is what they made me
You’re my Superman, but it’s unclear
Now that I’m alone I have learned to face my fears
You don’t know what will make me happy
Don’t dare cross me because I will make you feel my agony
Photo Credits: Ericka Garcia