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Totalitarian Ruler

It has been a process in a world with no escape plan
A world where your skin color determines where you stand
I wonder late at night if this is the real world God put me in
He tells me through the scriptures He will never leave me behind
Then I come to think it is not really the world maybe it is me
Maybe I haven’t learned to overcome adversity being thrown at me
I think it’s time for me to be real and tell you what going on
I get yelled at by a man in my house; not for reasonable things
For things that honestly wouldn’t mean anything
He verbally abuses me and I have to stay awake
Stay awake and remind myself that everything will be okay
No one really knows how I feel when I go home at night
I just have a small hope in my heart that he won’t be home
I’ve learned to not have sympathy for him anymore
He is totally bipolar and doesn’t know it he switches too quick
He can be in my face one minute then joking the next
I’m tired of being his punching bag because now I’m weak
Weak from the crap he continues to spew to me
Tired but I’m as awake as I can possibly be
On my hands and knees to pray so that I can see
See my life run a course he wouldn’t see in me
Watch myself grow to be better than he’d ever be

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Photographer

She isn’t aware of the beauty she holds

The things that she does takes more than control

She has her own days to find out and know

The mysterious beauty the world holds

Her camera in hand as she goes giving nature a glow

As amazing as you say she is she will never know

The sigh that you make every time that she goes

Not to be odd but to love her till she knows

A beautiful girl will always love more than she knows

To: Ericka Garcia my photographer

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Au Courant | Updated or New

It is like the day should be new for you
But you haven’t found a way
A new Idea to help to look up at the sky
That may help you pave the way
But all I can think of is to look down
That is the only kind of way
I can see myself as new instead of
The disgusting looks I get from you
It is hard to find a person like you
Perhaps, that looks at me the same
My friends tell me I’m beautiful
I don’t know if to cry or say thanks
I have found it hard to see
The beauty in me the same way
Trust me I wish that my life wasn’t
Perplexing compared to my young days
Now I’m turning a new age
This time I ask for intellect
Rather than mercy for you

~Cass

Photo Credit: Ericka Garcia

Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

~George Bernard Shaw

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Set In

In bed, I stayed all day
Depression kept me there
A dubious mind ran away
Depression told it to
Crying all day with all reason
Depression made it happen
It’s, not a phase anymore
Depression finally set in.

~Cass

I’m not sure whether I’ve been happy. After my last book tour, I sat on my balcony with a cup of tea. I thought: ‘You can’t rewind the movie. I’ve spent more than half my life in the Middle East. There have been great moments of horror and depression and loneliness.’

~Robert Fisk

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Vacuity

You can make me feel terrible
But I can’t make you feel it
You can talk shit about me
But I can’t speak about you

You can keep me in the dark
But I can’t leave you alone
You can take away my heart
But I can’t even get to yours

You can break me the most
But I can’t crack you open
How come you mess with me
You can’t wait till I’m done

Life isn’t the least bit over
Come, run, until you can’t
Sadly I am stuck no way out
Why is this poet crying

Not because she is dying
I wonder who she speaks of
A lowly conscious that is flying.

~Cass

 

Hey guys,

I’m back it’s summer now and I am forcing myself to write mainly because I’ve been slacking and now I’m ready to post every week and I want to thank my photographer for all of these amazing pictures. Enjoy your life guys because sometimes it can take over and living starts to feel like a burden.

Once I knew only darkness and stillness… my life was without past or future… but a little word from the fingers of another fell into my hand that clutched at emptiness, and my heart leaped to the rapture of living.

~Helen Keller

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Ethical

I’ve been here for while not once did I mention what I look like

I still won’t tell you but here’s a hint, discrimination is real

No matter what you are or the color of your skin

People love the act of judging even if they say they don’t

I’m a person as are you; my life isn’t easy no ones is

We all fight for what we want to get bigger in life

The more you fight the greater you become

Your importance is not valued by such things of pettiness

Take all that you’ve made throw them at the world

Throw them so gracefully they can’t question the hurl.

~Cass

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You’re “SO” Funny

Hey, guys this poem is for people who like to piss you off to no avail; but you still manage to keep quiet for a long time so that you don’t come off as mean or get in trouble.

It’s hysterical to me how you think you’re funny

The things you say make you irrelevant

Making fun of people is the only thing you can do

Hahaha you’re class clown let’s see what I’ll make out of you

Pick on someone who’s on your level but I’m sure

Even they would destroy you.